♡Dear Diary ̳ ៱ᆺ៱ ̳ ∫
FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY'S IS COMING OUT SOOOOO SOON!
I am a STOOPID amount of excited!!!! Going to buy midnight showing tix for my hubby and I tomorro~
With that being said that's all that I have for 2dai. Oki baiiii
Sooo a few life updates!
I recieved a pretty big raise and promotion at my job out of no where back in August!!! It honestly feels so great to know that my efforts and work do not go unnoticed. I know I likely sound like a broken record but I truly could not be happier career-wise and really do love my job a lot. My husband also started a new job in August and due to the change in schedule we have been able to spend sooo much more time together; its been really refreshing since over the past 8ish years we have been together we have worked almost total opposite schedules. ♡(｡- ω -)
My little brother (not so little bc he's 6 ft+ and 25 now but to me he will always be a little kid begging me to play spiderman with him lol) kinda sporadically made the decision to move out of our house last week Sunday. He got a place in Brickell (Miami) that I personally think he's spending way too much money on but... if that's what he wants to do then I have no choice but to support him through it and he's only 45 minutes away from us so we will still be able to see each other regularly. I made it clear that I could not financially support him in anyway any longer now that we are only two two-income household now and that he would need to reimburse me for his portion of the cellphone bill, etc. Originally, we thought about renting the two extra bedrooms we have in our house out but I am a bit hesitant to want someone else in our space so we'll stick it out for now to see how it goes. Living in South Florida as a homeowner ain't cheap at all but we are not trying to move anytime soon since our home's current value is very high and will only go up with what I have planned over the next few years. Why must construction and renovations be soooo expensive though ughhhhhhhhhh. My first plan of action is replacing the flooring of our house for and I am thinking either a white marble or granite with pink flecks if I am able to source it hekekke.
I signed up for ClassPass again with one of my besties and have been doing a rotation of lagree pilates, heated pilates with HIIT cardio and cycling to stay active and I have been feeling so so great. Insane that working out and getting your body moving instead of rotting in bed really makes you feel AH-MAZZIIIIING!!! I am not allowing myself to focus on the scale which I tend to hyperfixate each time I begin my weight loss journey but am mostly focusing on the fit of my clothing and how strong I feel. One day at a time I am trying to heal my perception of myself and my body.
I'm in my pilates princess era again fr fr! ╰(*´︶`*)╯ It's crazy because I was obsessed with pilates from when I was 17-20 and here I am, back at it again. My interests really are an ever rotating wheel that I become obsessed with again when I revisit it.
Omg hiii sorry I disappeared again! >.>
I went to see Boy's Like Girls last weekend and it was actually life changing!!! They were my favorite boy band growing up but unfortunately I was never able to see them because of how strict my dad was *sobs*. AND I also looked really cute kekeke. Pic for proof below 8D
My back has been feeling a lot better so I've picked up working out again and it's actually insane how much better I'm feeling already. I've been doing heated pilates, reformed pilates and heavy lifting. ヾ(`ヘ´)ﾉﾞ
Lot's have happens since my last blog post so I will try to make a big post catching ya'll up with everything berry soon! (*≧ω≦*)
Back at the beginning of July my husband and I went to New York for a few days for my birthday and to see TWICE!
I had my brother drop us off at the airport early AM before he went to work and we relaxed and hit the bar (yes at 8 AM, it was 5 o'clock somewhere!!!) before our flight took off around 11 AM.
Our direct flight leaving FL went very smoothly thankfuly and 3 hours later we landed in the big apple, got ourselves an uber and were headed to Time Square! The hotel we stayed at was insanely lux and the room was furnished very nicely with such a stunning view of the city!
Once we unpacked we decided to explore a little and scope the area out before freshening up for dinner. There was a very interesting ornament like ball at the entrance level of the hotel we took a pic at!
We noticed that our hotel was just a few feet away from one of the subway entrances which ended up being a huge convenience! The concept of accessible public transportation and a walkable city is still mind boggling to me... In Florida its impossible to get from point A to point B let alone point C back to point A without a car or taking multiple ubers that are at least $20+ each way... in New York you could be on the other side of the state in a matter of minutes while only spending $2-3... Insane.
After walking in and out of some of the shops and looking at menus for the near by eateries for about 10-15 minutes we decided it was time to shower and get ready for my birthday dinner at Mari, a Korean handroll Michelin star restaurant I have been pining over for months! Luckily the restuarant ended up being just a skip and a hop over from our hotel and it took us only 10 minutes to get there walking!
Once we arrived we were the only people there as they had just opened so we certainly got the VIP treatment! We opted for the tasting menu which included 16 dishes:
PART TWO COMING IN A FEW DAYS!!! TTYL ⸜(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)⸝
Alrighty! So I guess I'll start of with saying that I ultimately decided to not only go back to black for my hair but I also cut off 4 inches (my hair still touches my butt keke), got layers and got a hime style haircut! I will say the bangs are pretty high maintenance because they get so oily so fast but goodness I feel so cute ngl (っ˘ω˘ς )
My new job has been AMAZING!!!! My boss is incredibly understanding and kind, the owners are two best friends who are WOMEN!!! (so cool) and so incredibly generous, my coworkers are all very nice to me, the place is so so stunning (we are actually going under major rennovations right now so its about to look even better!) AND I get free food??? It really is such a change of pace compared to my prior job where I felt like I was being micro-managed and having someone look over my shoulder constantly... and also MISERABLE and felt my life be so stagnant; here I have my silly little pink office and area that I have decorated by the nearest season/holiday and complete my tasks and assignments at my own pace, in my own way, on my own schedule which I create for myself. To top it off, I literally got a huge raise and promotion last week!!! I am so so so so very HAPPY and excited for what's to come!!!!!!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ
Another update where I talk about my NYC trip coming soon with a BUNCH of pictures! (๑˘︶˘๑)
HIIIIIII!!!!! its been a minute hasn't it? Life has been AMAZING lately!!! huge blog post update coming in the next few days hopefully as well as some site updates. missed everyone on here so much o(>ω<)o
MAJOR life update! I was offered an incredible job oppertunity at a place I have been doing contract work for since February so last week Friday, I decided to put my two weeks in at a job I have been at basically all of my adult life (we're talking 7+ years). My new gig offered me a $15k annual increase to my current salary, my health insurance/dental/vision fully covered AND they will be helping me out with a new car by providing a down payment and a monthly stippen. Its honestly really terrifying to leave somewhere I am so comfortable and familiar with plus the driving being 5 minutes from my home I will miss but... I think the timing of everything happened for a reason and it was the universe opening a sparkly brand new door for me. I've spent the past week clearing out and organizing my desk... taking down my decorations.. clearing out my computer... certainly bittersweet but I have been feeling like I platued career-wise for quite some time and I'm incredibly excited to finally challenge myself and have the ability to learn new things while being in a new environment.
Hi hi! Life has been insanely busy lately so I'm sorry for disappearing yet again.
Earlier this month my husband and I celebrated our 1 year wedding anniversary!
We were able to score reservations for an omakase experience we have been dyiiiiing to go to for over a year now. Due to highly limited seating (there's only one seating of 8 people per day, only on Thursdays-Saturdays) we haven't been able to go so we were absolutely ELATED!
The Omakase was my favorite restaurant, Takato's, exclusive private omakase experience which featured about 14 different dishes all selected by their highly skilled sushi chefs called Oku. Our assigned host (yes, we had our own host and she was even texting me the entire day asking questions to make sure we had the best experience possible) had welcomed us with an insanely delicious cocktail that featured an imported Japanese bourbon (usually I stray away from dark liquors bc I am babie but my goodness it was delicious!!!!) and fresh fruit. Once seated, we were handed the menu for that night's experience and they were so insanely sweet to customize ours and add a "Happy Anniversary" greeting on ours. We decided to add on the wine/sake pairing and indulged on uni toast, truffle hotate, suzuki miso, mizu tako, usuzukuri, ika somen, bluefin tuna, hot madia, kinmedai, shima aji, miso tyee salom, kinki, dengaku, torom saba, wagyu, hotate uni temaki, tamago, somen noodle, endimg with a dessert of fruit cake and Japan musk melon.
We had done a few different omakase experiences previously, our favorite before this dinner being the pop up we went to at the Versace mansion in Miami and wow... when I tell you this absolutely BLEW us out of the water. Everything was so artfully crafted and handpicked, the chefs made it a point to explain each and every component of each dish. My husband makes it a goal to outdo himself on spending each anniversary we have and he sure did that lmao. We left $1.25k less in his pocket but it was worth truly every single penny. We could not have imagined an even more perfect anniversary to spend together.
On my closing note, this past weekend my husband and I went to Melting Pot (CHEEEEEEEEEEEEESE) and it was the first day in months I genuinly felt really cute. So here's a selfie since it has also been like two months since I have been able to stomach taking a pic of myself due to mento illnezz lol T-T
Ah hewwu, its been a while hasn't it!
Disney was absolutley incredible as always, ate a bunch of deliciously adorable food and the lines were suprsingly not bad at all (I'm talking no more than a 30 minutes wait for anything!!!).
I have also decided that I will likely be cutting a few inches off my hair (my hair is about 35 inches now) because it has just gotten so long to the point of inconvenience and also I live in Florida where it rarely dips under 85 degrees. On top of that, when you hair is just so long and thick its nearly impossible to style it or do anything fun with it and at the end of the day it will always grow back! I dropped the idea of going fully blonde as I realized I do not want to sacrifice my hairs health in exchange, my last bleaching of my money pieces we went white blonde which was my goal but I have unfortunately had a lot of breakage the past few weeks and have decided its simply not worth it. I may do a deep chocolate cherry tint instead on my nonbleached areas and possible a soft pink on my money pieces with ashy roots to begin the grow out process but I have a few weeks prior to my next hair appt to change my mind lol.
🎀August 18, 2022🎀
Alrighty! So slight life update~
I've decided for my hair appt Caturday I will just get my roots redone platinum and keep the same style I have currently since I am off on socails rn and I wouldn't be able to flex a switch up.
Then at my next hair appt hopefully in October I decided I will actually do the pink and brown look and THEN see how I feel and decide if I want to damage my hair and lose some inches to go blonde!
ORRR at the back of my head and legit before every appt ever I have a little voice screaming at me to go back to my classic blue black hair that I rocked for basically almost all my life... its just so *chef kiss* and a lot more low maint and ultimately a loooooot healthier for my hair since I have like 43 inches of growth rn lol
Will post pics wif my fresh roots once done kekeke~
ALSOOOOO Disney trip not this weekend but the following! My bestie and I are going for 3 days since we have a long weekend and want to use our Annual Passholder perks before they expire.
We plan on going to Animal Kingdom with EPCOT at night to check out the food and wine festival goodies, then Hollywood Studios the next day and again finishing up at the food and wine fesival to try out the things we missed the prior day and then on our final day we are going to Magic Kingdom!
🎀August 11, 2022🎀
URG my hair appt is next Saturday and I still have no idea what to do!!!
Currently I have platinum blonde money pieces/bangs with my natural hair color in the back which is essentially pitch black plus hair tinsel but... I feel like it may be time for a change?
I've done honey blonde, baby pink, fuschia already (all pictures below plus my current hair) and I'm honestly verrrry tempted to go back to pink OR perhaps pink and brown like chupa chups lolipops???
ORRRR maybe I should slowly go fully blonde? I feel like its a rite of passage being latina and asian so... much to think....
🎀August 10, 2022🎀
Really sucks that my own mother who I solely support and take care of (been doing this for about 5+ years) reduced my trauma to being a result of me dressing ~provocative~...
I was in the kitchen prepping a snack and my mom passed by and asked me how the show went. I proceeded to have a total break down and told her what had happened through rivers of tears and the first thing she said to me was "You need to dress more conservativley." like... HELLOOOO?!??!?!? READ the ROOM!!! I flipped out and explained to her how inapprpriate and wrong her comment was which was just as good as me talking to a wall. Sometimes I don't even know why I try with her honestly.
BUT ANYWAYS!!! I don't want to end yet another diary post on a sad note so I'll list out my goals for this month: dust off my sewing machine and refresh my memory on how to make jumbo scrunchies and also finally attempt creating a dress, work out at least 3-4 days a week/focus on eating intuitively and list at least 15 clothing items on my Depop store.
Also very excited for the leftover sesame chicken and beef lo mein sitting in da fridge for me at home for dinner ╰(▔∀▔)╯ which I'll nom on while I watch the new episode of Only Murders in the Building kekekeke (Selena Gomez really has pleasantly suprised me in this role btw).
🎀August 8, 2022🎀
TW: s*xual assault & su*cide
Friday went horribly.
My husband and I went downtown about an hour before the show to get some Sushi Song (which was delicious as always) and a preshow drink. We hopped into the HUGE line to get in (literally I have never seen the line so insane, not even for Mad Decent) and waited. Once we were in we claimed out spot by the front of the pit. Last DGD concert I had went with my friends and got seperated, ended up in the pit solo and had a total blast. This concert... I had a feeling deep in my gut that something would go wrong but I couldn't figure out what. In between the first band's set and prior to Royal Coda going on my husband went into the merch line to cop my the most amazing DGD tour merch ever that was JoJo inspired!!! They ran out of the color scheme I had wanted but honestly totally ok, I'm grateful I was able to get anything at all because they had sold out.
After Royal Coda's set the atmosphere in the pit totally changed as DGD was setting up, it almost became menacing kinda like Pitu's aura from HxH. They played their first song and the pit got absolutley insane, I felt myself being jolted and thrown around with little ability to breathe but I told myself "you're ok, your husband is here to protect you, everything is fine". But then the next song came on and my husband fot ruthlessly sucked into the pit and I lost site of him. I started to panic but decided I would just focus on the music as he would eventually find his way back but then suddenly I felt myself being crushed by the people behind me. Then I felt someone grab my waist firmly and I automatically thought my husband had found his way back to my but those thoughts dropped when I felt the person press their junk against me and I noticed they weren't wearing a wedding band. I immediatley started to panic and tried so hard to push him off of me but he kept his grasp firm and the pit continued to push me around. I felt myself start to black out because 1) I literally could not breathe at all, I suffer from pretty severe asthma and the pit had just so many bodies in it making it feel like at least 100+ degrees 2) my body just shuts down when I process that something traumatic has/is happening to me. The pit surged and jumbled up the crowd again and the guy was gone (I don't even know what he looked like) and I finally gained sight of my husband. I was shaking so bad and still struggling to breathe. How did no one see what was happening to me? How can people be so unaware of their surroundings?
Once my husband was back next to me I told him we needed to go, I did not want to be there anymore, I had to get out. I felt like I was dying. He couldn't understand me or hear me because our ears were messed up from how loud everythhing was but he finally understood. Trying to leave was an absolute nightmare. I had to push us through crowds of sweaty people (mainly men) who REFUSED to budge even an inch so we could get by. The walk back to the car was very quiet, I was still trying to process and understand what had just happened to me. When we were finally about to go in our car I told my husband what had happened. He was incredibly distraught and blamed himself for not being there. I wish he could understand that its not his fault and not beat himself over it.
Unfortunately this was not my first experience being s*xually assaulted so all things considering I am handling it well... I think. I deleted all my social media apps and am not sure on when I plan on returning to them. I will continue to use my Neocities though as my private little sanctuary but want to spend the next few weeks focusing on myself and healing.
Sometimes I feel like life wants me to kms so bad and I will occasionally entertain the intrusive thoughts but I want to emerge from this even stronger.
My primary goal for the remainder of the year is to get super strong so I can kick anyone's butt who tries to mess with me.
🎀August 1, 2022🎀
Yesterday was karage's 1st burfdai so we threw her a burfdai pawty!!! We got lil sparkly blue cowboy hats since blue is tooootally her color, a mini dinasaur pinata, a bunch of balloons/presents for her and made a chimken & lobster pate kitty cake!
Her lil stance totally kills me in that picture, she truly is just too stinkin adorable (─‿‿─)♡
We ate at our favorite french restaurant, then visited our fav french bakery and got a bunch of delicious freshly baked goods. Later in the evening we went to watch Nope, Jordan Peele's new sci-fi thriller movie, and my goodness there were definetley some hauntingly horrifying visuals and sounds. This year has blessed us with some pretty good horror films like X, Black Phone, Fresh and Hellbender.
Some bad news... ( ╥ω╥ ) Our application got rejected for Penne for a number of reasons. She apparently needed a more calm setting with preferbly no kittens as she doesn't get along with them and well.. we have 3 lol. ALSO I am SO pissed because the lady conducting the interview called out vet and out vet said they had no record of our pets!!! Like what do you MEAAAAN!!! We literally spent almost $300 on Karage a few weeks ago and Tink has been going there for 4+ years.
🎀July 29, 2022🎀
Besides that, I am INSANELY pumped for the DGD concert in exactly a week, they are so fucking amazing live and to this day their show back in 2020??? (idr tbh but it was precovid, seems like eons ago) is the best performance I've been to. Been boping this single they released from their newest album which just dropped non-STOP! I will say though that I am a smidge stressed trying to figure out what outfit/overall vibe I want to wear so I gotta do some srs planning this weekend urggg ┐(￣～￣)┌
🎀July 28, 2022🎀
Soooo!
My husband and I visited our local cat cafe to see one of their newest additions, a beautiful 3 year old white kitty named Penne with the most beautiful jade green eyes. She ended up being such an incredibly sweet girl and yet she has been returned to the shelter twice! Her prior owner left Penne with her grandma while on holiday AND NEVER CAME BACK!!!! I can't even stomach that people can be so evil to just abandon their pet just like that... I would do anything and everything for my babies. Her grandma took care of Penne until she unfortunately had to go under hospice care which is how she ended up back in the shelter. We submitted our application and have our phone interview with the manager of the location tomorrow so fingers crossed! Would absolutely love to give this sweet angel the furever home she deserves. Please send us good vibes that we get approved! (≈ㅇᆽㅇ≈)♡
🎀July 22, 2022🎀
Mentally and physically so exhausted T-T
Whoever designed the 5 day work week... if I ever figure out how to make a time machine I'm coming for you first.(ﾒ￣▽￣)︻┳═一
🎀July 21, 2022🎀
Brain go purrrrr.
My husband bought me Stray on the Playstation 4 and... obsessed is an understatement (♡°▽°♡). I haven't gamed outside of my silly little mobile games for quite a while so this was such a nice breathe of fresh air. Anything to do with cats and I am THERE, say LESS! I literally played the game for amost 12 hours straight yesterday and the only reason why I stopped was because my controller died (ಥ﹏ಥ) . We also made homemade mexican pizza and it was life changing tbh.
